"Do you trust me?" says the Universe.
"I'm not sure how to" I respond back.
I explain to the Universe that I want to believe that there is a plan out there for me. I want to believe that I am not just doing all of this for nothing, all of this will be put to good use someday and I will benefit from all the hard work I put into myself. It's hard to keep going when you don't receive that instant gratification or that sign that you are doing everything right. It's difficult when you work for a better future, but the future is blurry and you don't have a clue what it's going to look like.
Something within me is telling me that I am doing everything right. That I am on the right path and that someday all of this diligence will pay off. My inner guide keeps reassuring me I am exactly where I need to be, I am doing what I should be doing, and the Universe has a plan for me that I cannot yet see, but it will be fulfilling. Somedays though, I need more than reassurance. I need that sign that comes out of no where and shows me that I am doing everything right.
When I don't see a sign, my mind starts to wonder. I wonder, maybe I am not doing everything right. That maybe this path of which I have chosen is not correct. My ego begins agreeing with that statement and I start doubting everything I am doing. Was my commitment to wellbeing and spirituality all for nothing? But then something within me (possibly that inner guide of mine) begins to argue with my ego, asking me how could I feel this way? "Don't you feel good after working hard to become a more mindful person? Don't you feel that longing for a good meditating session everyday? Hasn't the better knowledge of nutrition changed, not only your life, but the people that you love most? What about the clarity of which your mind thinks? What about the energy you feel during yoga practice? Is this really all for nothing? Has nothing changed about your well being, inner peace, and self love?!"
It's true true true!!! I have not felt better in my life!
It's okay to feel human and unsure of oneself, but understand that you are constantly fighting a battle with the ego. Once things start getting good, my ego tells me that this is not right! That everything I am doing is not right and I must go find another passion, just so my ego can tell me that path would not be right either? I used to be the person who would constantly change their mind about everything because I couldn't tell the difference between my inner guide and my ego. Through yoga, meditation, and inner work, that voice of my inner guide becomes louder and my ego becomes quieter. My inner guide becomes much more easier to hear. What's the biggest difference between my ego and my inner guide? Love. My inner guide will always come from love.
Your inner guide is the Universe's right hand man. They are best friends, and they are your best friend. That is how you trust the Universe. If you listen to the love that resides within you, you are listening to your inner guide, which is trusting the Universe because it's all the same. You, your inner guide, and the Universe, it's all the same. By trusting that love within you, love will never steer you wrong, you will find yourself on the path that's right for you. A path full of fulfillment. A path all of the hard work you put into will eventually pay off. A path that is yours.